Sunday, May 06, 2007

went out wif xiang ting and kok wei today...
to play pool... ^-^
realli wanna to improve my pool skills la...
i am so lousy at it...

during the pool game...
got to talk to them alot...
xt got one pt of time,
she asked me why am i acting blur sometimes...
i am nt lyk tt when i was in thailand...
then i started thinking...
why did i act blur nowadays?
why am i so unhappy?
why did i make myself so stress?
why i always keep things to myself and nt share wif anyone?
lead to me reflecting abt my life for tis few weeks...

hmm...
acting blur maybe cos i wanna to let other ppl to notice me?
so stress is cos of cello again... -.-

shld be oso cos of my class i am in now...
i keep getting an C for daily grade...
i cannot blame it on my classmate...
is due to my unwillingness to speak up...
i am not as active as i am in the past...
if i try to be abit siao in the class,
put in effort when doing research,
nt to watch so much movie or drama...
interact wif anyone/everyone!
be optimistic and use my brain... hahaha...

then can be oso...
i always come home so late...
cannot even grumble to my mum how my life was lyk...
in the past she will listen abit to my nonsense!
now rarely i will talk to her abit my life...
i had nt been going out wif my family for a long long time...
after going out wif them to IKEA!
i feel better... hahaha...
cos they are spending the money to let me eat and buy some stuff i wan! =D
get to talk and spend time wif them... hehehe...

ytd got to chat on the phone wif qixiang...
i shld be the one consoling him,
but it turned out to be the other way round? lol
cos he told me tt,
some things cannot be rush...
shld be taken step by step...
i thought abt wat he said...
i shld let time show me more things...
n nt jumping into conclusion n any how think abt the stuff... =)

and i oso shld nt close myself up too much ar...
sometimes i shld open up n tell u guys wat happen...
but most of the time i will scare tt,
i am disturbing or irritating or keep repeating the same stuff...
can u all try to help me? hehehe...
make me spill out anything i am nt happy abt?
then if i am making the same stupid mistake or thinking abt the same stupid stuff...
make sense out for me?
cos my brain sometimes cannot think another way...
thank you all first for reading all my thoughts... xie xie! +.+

going to slp le...
if nt enough slp = bad mood for me... hehehe...